wander, woman

Minsan nadadaanq lang ng pride eh. Pero may presyo ang lahat ng bagay. I don’t even mean price as money. My last salary drawn in 2004, where I started my first job after university was the same amount you are ‘offering’ me in 2016. To travel for an hour, on a really bad schedule because I am a junior faculty, and not to even undergo proper employee orientation, without any proper place to stay in, in between classes. I talked to people about this, and they really think this is an investment really. That things will get better.   When I was asked to work for xxx, I even consulted wit Dr Axx. He said strategically it’s a no-brainer. The more prestigious school will take me further, in life’s trajectories. But Uxxx gave me a cubicle. And the intellectual reign to design the module I am teaching. No turning back, really. There are times I think of that, i.e., whenever I prepare my lectures on Fukuyama’s State-building (American Government and Politics), or when I get my students to work on

one of those nights i thought hey-- i should write this down. i might. might. have reached the point where that smugness, smugidity, smug has finally worn. it might be because of age, may be because of time. whatever it is, it's making me rhyme. again. like something lost now finally found. someone i had, an old familiar sound. must not drop the ball, do not do this in haste. write. make. tell stories. create. always wanting, always hungry, let all things percolate.